My Monthly Update

So it's been awhile since I've updated.  What's happened you might ask?  Well I've been in two wrecks, dealt (dealing) with too many insurance adjusters and body shops, seeing a chiropractor, finished another (hopefully my last) semester at Seminary, am in the process of looking for a new place to live, was broken up with, and turned 25.  It's been a crazy couple of months.  And to be fair all but one of those things happened in the last 22 days!! 

And while life as a whole kinda stinks right now....I can say that when I get a moment to stop and breathe I remember: God is still good and His compassions never fail.  So instead of trying to run around and solve all these dilemmas myself.  I'm pushing down that impatient side of me and trying to relax (de-stressing is supposed to help my back and neck heal faster) and trying to sit still and WAIT on God to do what He needs to in my life. 

He is faithful!!  And He is Immanuel--God with us.  That's been a comfort during this month.  He is good.

Currently Listening The Road to Here By Little Big Town Bring It All Home see related

You see I've wanted to update...

It's the announcement you've all been waiting for....

Okay, so maybe it's the announcement that I've been waiting to make, but just in case any of you were wondering....

JOSHUA IS MY BOYFRIEND!!!

And I may be a little excited about this incredible, godly, attractive, thoughtful man wanting to date me.  Just a little you understand, but excited nonetheless.  Isn't our God a good God?  He's better to me than I deserve.  I live a blessed life. 

(You know what this means now don't you...I have to change all this black and white artsy, girl sitting alone in the background, must do everything myself theme into something different.   I welcome ideas...as long as they don't involve flowers or lots of pink; I'm not going to become a completely girly girl, lol. )

Seeing Paradoxes

I was talking to my friend Beth tonight about this fictional couple she's writing about, and the situation she's placed them in made something very apparent to me. 

I find it interesting how we often see those closest to us as the exact opposite of how they see themselves.  For example, this woman sees her husband as a strong, determined refuge.  But this he sees himself as weak, unsure, a veneer.  This is both a blessing and a curse.  A blessing because she see things in him that he cannot see and so she encourages those qualities and depends on them.  And yet, if she can't understand his self doubt--she will easily hurt him.

In the same way, his humbleness can cause him to be grateful and cautious of how he handles things, and yet if he never has faith in himself--she'll never be able to convince him otherwise.  He'll always be fighting his demons and that's his curse.

Random pondering I know, but I thought it was worth considering. 

The Day After....

Cecil and Erynn got married yesterday!  It was such a beautiful day...well for the most part.   I am so glad that I got to be a part of it because they are both a couple of the  most special people in my life.  I am real happy for them!! 

None of this was marred by boutinerres (HOW DO YOU SPELL THAT WORD?) committing suicide, or Cecil tearing my dress, or you know being soaked to the bone....haha. It was a great day, and I'll remember it forever.  I will say that next time I'm just going to have some fun being drenched in a bridesmaid's dress with one of my best friends instead of running around trying NOT to get wet while he asks me if all of this stuff really is going in their car and looking at me like he's not sure which one of us is crazier. 

My life is good.  I think God is trying to teach me to enjoy the NOW (which is actually pretty great) instead of longing for what may be coming. My friends are married!!!